The great nineteenth century thinker Schopenhauer believed that our lives personify longing. Recently, I felt a strange dose of this longing while trapped in the soul-killing world of a shopping mall. 

Headless manequins   Wiling away two hours walking linoleum-clad corridors (waiting for a pair of glasses to be repaired) I entered a Nordstrom's store. There I discovered suits priced at $3000 and mannequins with sharp points for heads. 

   At the risk of sounding stuffy, I wondered: Do we fight wars so that people can go mall-shopping? Do caregivers save lives so the resurrected can mall-shop?

   Imprisoned amid headless mannequins, I wondered if I could live the rest of my life never re-entering such heartless places. 

   John O'Donohue tells us that Richard Wagner's opera "Tristan and Isolde" describes "our huge craving for love." Where do we find the answer to such a craving? 

   "The music of Wagner has a magnificent Architecture of longing," O'Donohue writes. Presumably, as we listen to his genius, our longing finds a home where we may lay down our burdens.

   Instead, most of us head for the mall. 

   At the mall, I discovered a father who (perhaps desperate) had decided to keep his young children occupied by showing them a cartoon on his iPhone (below right.)

Dad showing kids video   Down the linoleum, I spotted a long line. "What are you waiting for?" I asked. "Oh my God, the new iPhone is inside," an excited couple told me. "It is, like, so awesome!"

   How do iPhones and $3000 suits meet our longing? Do they keep us so pre-occupied we can ignore harder life choices? Frankly, I admit that I find it more diverting to watch a football game than to consider the meaning of my life.

   A store front offered an answer. "Couture your life," the pink writing on the store window said (below.)

  Mall windows "That's it!" I thought. "I'll just 'coutoure my life.' Once my clothes are custom-designed, longing will dissipate like morning fog.'"

   Alas, the store was dedicated to women, as was the one next door where the slogan said, "Burberry your body." Naturally, wrapping oneself in Burberry would, at least, deliver warmth and a feeling of being a cut above those wearing Target specials.

   "I was compelled early to isolate myself, to live in loneliness. When I at times tried to forget all this O how harshly was I repulsed by the doubly sad experience of my bad hearing."

   The writer is Beethoven. He longed not for a Burberry or a suit, but for the restoration of his hearing.

   Had there been shopping malls in the mid-nineteenth century perhaps Beethoven could have drowned his sorrows there. Instead, in the midst of complete deafness, he composed his world-changing Ninth Symphony. Who has not felt an answer to longing amid his "Ode to Joy?"

 -Reverend Erie Chapman

7 responses to “Days 306-307 – Trapped”

  1. Marily Avatar

    πŸ™‚ this is the strange world we’re in Rev. Erie, we could feel trapped, yes only when we allow it at least, it is just for a moment in time in this beautiful mess. Truth is always safe all the time.

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  2. Karen York Avatar
    Karen York

    Sometimes I hear “Ode to Joy” piped in at the mall… just sayin’.
    I hear your plea for us to engage our true inner selves when all things mall-related may seem only to engage our exterior egotistical urges. I like shoes and I like shopping for shoes. In some small way they help lift my spirit and help me feel good about myself. The same is true for pretty clothes. That may be trivial and looking only at adornment. If it were my only way of finding or living my purpose, then yes it would be futile and ugly. If I look at it as adorning myself in a way that allows me to shine and reveal more of god’s light, then it seems like a good thing. I am blessed to be able to go to a mall and afford things there (albeit not at Nordstrom, Burberry or Coutour). I am indeed thankful. It is the inner substance that drives the exterior activities and need for validation. Indeed we don’t always keep those in balance.

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  3. ~liz Wessel Avatar

    And that’s why I have to go back
    to so many places in the future,
    there to find myself
    with no witness but the moon
    and then whistle with joy,
    ambling over rocks and clods of earth,
    with no task but to live,
    with no family but the road.
    -Pablo Neruda

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  4. candace nagle Avatar
    candace nagle

    There are as many perspectives as there are people. Shopping malls make me feel lonely and frightened for humanity. They make me think of sweat shops, piles and piles of non-biodegradable synthetic items, and (because I am in california) potential suffocation under massive concrete blocks. I avoid malls like a plague. Where is the town square with people laughing, dancing, telling stories?

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  5. erie chapman Avatar
    erie chapman

    Thank you Marily, Liz, Karen and Candace, for four different and very helpful perspectives.

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  6. Maria Doglio Avatar
    Maria Doglio

    The mall isn’t for everyone, but it does serve people. You can look at malls as a reflection of people’s craft, creativity, a place to earn a living, meeting the needs of family or you can see it in a totally negative light filled with greed and over the top frivolity and products of exploited peoples. It’s a mix of all these things. Malls are ancient – like the Greek Agora. It’s just changed with the times, but still is a place to gather. Malls are not my preferred choice, they generally give me a headache, but occasionally they are convenient. It’s not a real world, as you discovered, but a manufactured one that feeds us the false line “you must have this to be happy”. We always have a choice to either plug in or stay away. Maybe the Mall experience was your tipping point.
    There is something deeper in your writings that I sense from you in the last number of weeks–a string of themes, that to me reflects a great longing and intense search to look into the depths of the soul-self and meaning of our life’s purpose. Each of us is on a different stage in that path. I think when we recognize that we’ve come to the trapped point, we can shout “enough!” and break free. What we all have in common is that we are all trapped in our cocoons, trying to figure out how to become beings of exquisite light and love. I believe we already are that, we’ve just forgotten.

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